Warning: A post w no link or meaning. I'm just gonna type what comes t my head.

Last night was hell. Tersadar 4 times from my sleep cos I dreamt of you. 4 times I dream of you. What is God trying t tell me, I'm seriously lost.

Idk how much longer I can take this, idk how much longer till I really go crazy. Everything is just different without you here. I cannot get you out of my head. Try all I can, a gazillion times still trying, it's your face tt constantly appear. Can't believe I forgot how t breathe for a second when I thought of you. And th pain when I see your face, but no longer with tt sweet smile you used t give me. How much I miss you, and so desperately want t hug you tight. Hurts seeing you without being able t call you mine.

So many things in my heart I just cannot find th right words t say. But I cannot take looking at your face anymore. It just hurts too bad and tears are always flowing every night. Free time means more time t think of you, which I try hard t avoid. I can't seem t smile or laugh. And everybody is asking me t cheer up. But how? Cos I'm only happy when I'm w you.

And you don't noe how much I so desperately miss you. Tt as I'm typing every single word here, knives are stabbing through my heart. Is this what love is suppose t feel like? Cos now I'm afraid, afraid t give my heart t anyone. I'm afraid t love again. Ironically despite my worry of th pain, I still want you. Please come back into my life. I cannot take it anymore. I just really cant.

Excuse my emotions, I'm a Lit student.